What he said to me 2 by Bsorlah

Time to pick up from where we stopped.

Just a recap from the 1st episode of "What He Said To Me".

With the aim of making me come back into a long gone relationship,  He said, "back then we were amateurs and we didn't really know what we wanted". Now, this made me realise how much I had grown.

Here's the last episode  of "What He Said To Me".

I kept on pondering and trying to pull out the margin between the girl he dated years back, the lady I have grown into and the woman I dream to become.

I could pull up a long fence to differentiate between the things I wanted back then and now. Those things that mattered in the past, and the ones I hold in high esteem at this moment.

Yes He was right when He said "back then we were amateurs and we didn't really know what we wanted". However, He was wrong to think that was enough to make me come back, because on the grounds of those words, I was standing in for myself not us.

My vision and dreams for life had gotten bigger and he doesn't fit in anymore. He was exactly five (5) steps away and making this relationship work, meant me being stagnant for a period. I'm not sure how long it would take him to grow or adjust to the "new me" .

You can call it "standard" and you can say I'm forming for him (pidgin version that connotes me  'playing hard to get'). But then, what is a future without standard?

What is life when u don't prepare for success, but you just take whatever it gives,:bitter, sour or sweet?

When I sit to tell my kids about their Father, I refuse to speak with regrets, I refuse to be the cheating wife, because along the marriage route I got distracted by my picture of the ideal man.

I wouldn't let the generations attached to me suffer because I left purpose for my lustful desire of a man.

So here are few words to hold on to:

- Have a standard and live by it.

- Don't just search for the ideal man or woman, become the ideal man or woman for your partner.

- In life, you get what you settle for.

- Don't get stranded over a minute of lustful thoughts, thereby ruining a wonderful home you can build.

- Don't loose the "glorious" for mere fantasy.

Dropping my pen here on this one.

XOXO, and remember to drop your comment